Opinions. Do you care about what other people think of you? Are you the kind of person that expresses your opinion freely, not worrying if it is not well received? I have been thinking about this lately, and have come to the conclusion that although I would love to be one of those people, I am not. It does matter to me what people think. Just writing this blog was a huge step for me, because I'm uncomfortable with possible rejection. Putting yourself out there can be intimidating, but I'm glad that I have. I try to make my postings more thought provoking than controversial. The other day I was quick to react to someone I disagreed with, and regretted it later. I seem to have a need to be right, but when it gets in the way, and doesn't end well maybe I should reevaluate and look for a better way. How do you respond to those you disagree with?
I long for affirmation but I also see the scarcity that creates. Delving into any artistic venture can wreck havoc with my vulnerability. But, I do it anyway. If people disagree with me I shrink back and try to fix their opinion. I call this the hustle for worthiness. That dance stinks and I have come to resist the invitation. It feels good to say that I'm trying to free myself from this temptation.
ReplyDeleteYou are so correct about scarcity. If I only produce writing that I think people will like then I'm limiting my voice. This is a hard one for me because of the discomfort of confrontation. I'm going to reflect on your comment some more. Thanks for responding.
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